So I guess this is where I left my life...
I walk to the old spot where we used to go,
and sit alone in the corner...
watching my breath disappear in front of me.

I still remember that night in January
We were both so cold but we didn't care...
All we wanted was an hour to ourselves
to get away from the rest of the world
with their stares and taunts.
Now I return to this place
for an hour without you
Our laughs still echo off the walls as I sit here.
Head in hands I begin to cry,
and I hear us whisper to each other in the dark...

"I love you."

"I love you too."


I scream out to God
but I get no reply.
I guess even He is too busy to talk to me tonight.

This was our secret place,
a place full of memories,
of secrets that will stay locked inside my heart forever,
a place haunted by a love that never had the chance to grow...

But now it is back to what it always was.
An old abandoned building,
cold concrete floors.
I get up and begin searching for our love among the dead leaves that are blowing across the ground,
but I just end up curled up in the corner like before.

It's colder than I remember here,
but then I remind myself that all of those other nights you were here to keep me warm.
I can almost hear you making your way up the stairs,
I can almost see your smile when you find me here waiting for you,
I can almost feel your arms around me again.
I can almost hear you whisper into my ear,

"I'll keep you warm..."

I stand up

I know I cannot hold onto this place forever,
but I can never seem to stop myself from coming back,
hoping to find you at the top of the landing...hoping to find the love that I lost...
I begin walking back home, not even bothering to wipe the tears from my eyes.


And God still hasn't answered.