Reflections

PROLOGUE

My mind wishes to see the future, and my heart agrees.........
There is the crystal sea - with the sound of waves reaching the ears like the sound of sweet music, a continuous rush of sound - the sound of the birds in the background - the sky is grey - wanting to rain but not yet - there is a slight drizzle though - as if some magic had made the sky and the drizzle stay like that forever, there is a cool breeze causing the trees to rustle in sheer happiness, there is the mountain - in all its lavish greenery - the pride of being the king of the sea - and then.... there were we - on the dew filled meadows of the mountain under the cool shade of a tree - as if the world is just for the two of us - forgetting and caring less for others it seems - for we were in the company of each other and we did not want anyone. Time seemed to stopped for us - for there we lay - it seems for eternity - blinded by the magic of love........

It seems I am resting on your lap - I look at your beautiful face - thanking within myself - God - for having sent you to me, every moment seems to last for an infinite eternity.....I look into your eyes and I see the innocence - the very feeling - making my heart fill with pleasure, and it seems I can only think of saying......I love you, you stay silent - for I know the reason - you always know……………..I kiss you, I feel the warmth of your tender lips on mine – it seemed like we kissed forever…. You were the princess of the kingdom of my heart, and it seemed I was a slave chained to the spell of your love……

I look at the sky - it seems it has become night - I can see the moon wading in the grey clouds – I ask you - why am I so lucky, why am I so happy? You only say - it’s because you love me.....
I fall asleep - after kissing you good night - only to dream about you......
Time goes back......I can see images flashing by - reminisces of the past……….

CHAPTER 1

REALIZATION OF THE TRUTH……..

“Love is like a rose with gentle, tender parts,
Slowly it unfolds and develops in your heart.
Its beauty can’t be tamed it’s as wild as the wind
Words can never explain the feelings held within.
You could be cut by a thorn and your heart would tend to bleed,
Sometimes it will be torn, but inside is always a new seed.
There will always be a change, and yet it grows and grows,
And although it may seem strange,
Love is like a rose.”

Never had I imagined, that I would in fact be influenced by something personal, a feeling….called love.
The moment of truth, the moment of sadness, of despair, the very thought pricking my heart – you did not care about me……..
How will it be if the whole world around you is silent but you can still hear your heart cry – in anguish, in pain? You will never know….Tears in the eyes, a heavy heart, sleepless nights, and dreams of nightmares…..the realization of the truth…..
The realization of the truth………I realized the true meaning of love in those desperate moments. A heart that was crying realized it would only become more stubborn, it was then my heart decided that one day, the girl of my dreams would be mine…..I realized that I had been thinking wrong about love all those days, I realized love was knowing that you were not lonely……