Love Forever

"Love is like a rose with gentle, tender parts. Slowly it unfolds and develops in your heart. Its beauty can’t be tamed, it’s as wild as the wind. Words can never explain the feelings held within. You could be cut by a thorn and your heart would tend to bleed. Sometimes it will be torn, but inside is always a new seed. There will always be a change, and yet it grows and grows, and although it may seem strange - Love is like a rose...."

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I'm Gone

I boarded the train
Walked to my seat
Looked through the tinted glass
to where you were standing.
I tapped on the window
Loud as i could
Hoping in vain
You might hear.
I wondered what you were thinking,
Where your bumbling eyes and head were searching.
I wondered what you were saying to my friends
Whether you missed me already
Whether you wanted me to stay for a little longer

And I thought to myself,
I miss you already too.
I wish I could stay longer
To have more time to say what you mean to me,
to tell you I want the best to come to you.
But now is my time to go
And my destination is all prepared just for me.

I departed into eternal life,
Entered the kingdom of my Creator,
Looked through Heaven's spyglass
Down to where you live.
I burst into bittersweet happiness
Wished all i had now was yours
Wished this love could surround-you
And bless, satisfy, carry-you
Every day through life's unceasing struggles.
I wondered what you were thinking
Sympathized with you
While tears flowed down your cheek
As you overlooked the boxed-up body
I once abode in.
I listened to your every word,
Felt the emotional release you found
In having my family and friends around you.
I knew you missed me already
-wish I could have stayed longer.

And I thought to myself,
I miss you too!
But can't admit any wish to stay longer,
Except to have more time to say
What you mean to me,
To say I want the best to come to you.
But it was my time to go
And the place I'm in I found all prepared just for me.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

What i am to you - i do not know,
but what you are to me -
my entire life will not be enough to tell you about it......

you are my love,
you are my life,
my love, my life - i am just asking you to spend one moment with me - be it even a fleeting second...

because i miss your dear,
you seem to far - in distance,
but you never seem so far from my heart.....

i want you to know that i'm still waiting,
waiting for that day - when we'll see each other after a very long time,
not knowing what to do..........

a hug,
a kiss,
a tear and
"i love you sweet heart"
That one moment....

a struggle - that finally seemed nothing for that one second,
a life - that finally seemed beautiful for that one moment,
a feeling - that seemed so special for that moment,
a thought - that seemed to last forever,
a dream - that finally came true,
a nightmare - that finally came to an end,

that one moment - when you told me........
'I love you'

Friday, August 12, 2005

I feel myself falling, so hard and fast
Calling out, no one hearing my frightened screams
My hands reaching out desparately, grabbing only the air
Clinging to life, darkness enveloping me, tearing me away.
A hand...reaches to pull me up, warm and strong
"Dont let go" I plead and beg.....seeing the light and hope.
It shines like a brilliant cloud around you, lifting me up.
Your eyes meeting mine..nothing needs to be said,
As you pull me safely to you and I collapse in your arms.
Weary but eternally grateful to you always.....................


To the one who has saved me in more ways than one.
I will love you "always"......
I have begged and pleaded
For the pressure to cease...
To let me be happy, in love and at peace..
Devouring whats left of my sanity,
Until nothings left, resembling me.

No one knowing my turmoil and strife..
The conflict and pain of my everday life.
How many times can the word "NO" be said?
My heart filled with pain, hestitancy and dread.

You use words like a weapon
To wound , soothe or maim
Cutting deeply or softly..
Its all one in the same.

You asked for forgiveness,
I gave more than my share...
Trying so hard to show you
That others really do care.

But its like an art to you
Deftly weaving whats true
Like an intricate web
Only giving a clue

You cry pain and injustice
For others to see...
Sitting back and then watching
What will happen to me.

I will be silent no more
But at what cost to me?
No more manipulation,
I am free of your tyranny

You see...Love isnt a weapon
To be wielded by you
Its mine to take back..
So my heart can be true!
After a while you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and
company doesn't mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head
up and your eyes open, with the grace of an woman,
not the grief of a child,

And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure . . .
that you really are strong,
and you really do have worth.
And you learn and you learn . . .
with every good-bye you learn. . . .
The song trailed off in the distance and the words became a blur
The pain washed over fresh and new, old wounds reopened,
Raw and gnawing, a piece of hot metal thrust back into your heart.

The song, haunting in its memory, for a moment bittersweet,
Turns your heart to tormented anguish
Hot tears stream down my face, suffocating me,
As I try to pull you from the desolate, deep abyss.

All too familiar is the pain, the wanting, passion, desire...
Love now an empty shell, hollow is its ring
Unfulfilled desires, parched, not able to quench or extinguish...
Lips wracked with grief, with unanswered questions of "Why?"

I am helpless against the shadowy memories and words
Every wave of fresh pain, crashes down with an unspoken reality.
My chest...heavy with grief...prays you find some kind of peace
A peace you deseve...A love filled with kisses instead of tears.
Memories are all that remains,
Of a perfect love gone wrong,
Memories of your warm smile,
Of your soft loving caresses,
And your sweet tender kisses,

Memories so bitter yet so sweet,
Where my lips curl into a smile,
Yet the joy never to reach my eyes,
As unbidden tears streak down,

Memories of a classic love story,
That ended on a rain soaked day,
As if the sky saw and empathized,
And weeped along with my heart,

Moments we had spent together,
Will live and last forever,
As unforgettable memories,
To be played over and over,

Memories are all that I have left,
Of a love that once burned bright,
Now masked, dimmed and dying,
But it is in this eternal moment,
That I love you the most,

But it is too late to turn back now,
For we have taken a one way road,
To memories and might have beens,
And used up all our given chances,

So now, while I hurt and ache,
I will also pray, hope and wait,
For a gentle and loving heart,
To heal and revive this love broken soul,
And give a new home to this orphaned heart...…
So close yet so far,
I look around wondering where you are,
I miss you yet,
We have actually never met.
Our minds bonded so tight,
Together we are only making it right,
I feel like I've known you forever,
We won't part, no never.
Longing to be in your arms,
I relax into your charms,
You chase away the nightmares,
You calm all my cares.
Roses for Rose


Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose.
And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day."
"My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,
The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know."
"The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance."
"Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."

"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.
There also is another thing, that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago."

"Then, should ever, I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...
"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."

"I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife."

"You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."

"When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."

"Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock."

"He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,
And place the roses where we are, together once again."
I still wear that ring
The one that reminds me of you
I see it everyday
It never leaves my hand
Just as you never leave my thoughts

I still have those words
Ringing in my head
The ones that you asked me
The ones where you promised to be with me
The ones I took for granted
They are always ringing through my mind

I still have your pictures
I see them everyday
They sit with your eyes staring at me
I can see all the joy
The joy that has cause you nothing but pain

I still have those feelings
The ones there for only you
They are the only thing that reminds me
Of everything I want out of life
I am sorry I caused you the pain
I am sorry I made you cry
Just know that those feelings
Are with me for the rest of my life

I still have that ring
The one that reminds me of you.
Do you hide your face when others want to see...
Do you lower your eyes to the beauty all around...
Do you let your hair down only to cover your smile...
Do you put up your defenses so not to be hurt?

Would you show your face if if I asked to see...
Would you raise your eyes if it were me looking into them...
Would you let your hair down and show me that smile...
Would you let me inside your wall of doubt?

I will hold your cheek and love who you are...
I will open my eyes and see who you are...
I will comb your hair and feel who you are...
I will be in love knowing who you are!

Will you?

Thursday, August 11, 2005

When I think of you I smile
Even as the day begins to tire me down
Could it be the things unsaid,
The way your almond eyes collect the brilliance within

Or must it be that when we kiss
The dragonflies from Summer's bliss
Surround us.... Astounding us!

Oh, the Sunshine and the Moonbeams
Colliding in lost dreams
Well I see you here with the fairies
All dancing now in my dreams

Believe in me and I'll believe in you
I speak from the heart and I'm willing truth
Hold me close, never let me go
Look in my eyes, can you hear my soul

Take a moment now.....
Can you feel it....

Oh, the Sunshine and the Moonbeams
Intertwining so freely
Well I see you here with the fairies
All dancing now in my dreams

Believe in me 'cause I believe in you
I wear the Lion's heart and I'm willing truth
Hold me close as I breathe in you
One more time, yeah something new

There's just one more thing....
Left to tell you.....